Days in life

These are the days in life where I put everything to doubt...

After weeks of nightmares... Dreaming about the same person... Looking around me and noticing that we all live the same lives... Being fed up with life...

Being in need of staring at the stars... Hoping they would come closer than they were yesterday...

Realizing that only I can change the way I live... And not wanting the same of other people...

And above all... Realizing that the reality.. My reality... The truth... My truth... Is nothing but a smokescreen wich I hide behind...

Wich I refuse to live by for I am not to be controlled... I am not to be instructed what to do... Where to stand and above all... How to live...

In this society of jealous... Racist... And egocentric people... I hope to find that special soul wich makes me feel at home and not another freak in this damned freakshow...

How can anyone live by his or hers hopes and dreams whilst being in the corner of the room... Being so shy that he can't even start a conversation with someone else and becoming every day more and more disgusted by social contact...

How to live in this society...